His Girl

It’s hard to believe that a year ago I lost my boyfriend/and best friend, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about James.  No one expects to lose someone they love so tragically, especially at the age of 22.  I can’t even begin to describe how I felt that day.  It’s like being sick to your stomach but not knowing when the feeling is going to go away…

The thought of never seeing James again felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest.  He was always so strong and the last person I would have been worried about.

Losing him has been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to face.  The past year I’ve had to deal with all the “firsts”, Christmas, new years, my birthday, Valentines Day, anniversary, his birthday…etc.  In my eyes those occasions didn’t happen, I just wished those dates would disappear; nothing has been the same without him.  My life has changed since that day and he will always hold a special spot in my heart.

This tragic experience has made me a stronger person, and has shown me what’s really important in life.  He would be happy to know how much support I have had from family and friends; I wouldn’t be where I am without any of them.

Love always,

Written on December 17, 2012